Katya, unfazed, sits on their couch,
while Lew slams the kitchen cupboard doors one after another, loudly,
deliberately. He�s
trying to get her attention, she imagines, waiting for her to scurry in and ask
what's wrong, but she isn�t going to nibble, not after thirty-seven years of
marriage, not after being a fish on a hook once too often. Closing her eyes, Katya imagines
standing on a sunny beach at the water's edge with tiny waves nipping at her
toes. Suddenly, a clamor of metal erupts. Katya jolts upright and looks toward
the kitchen. He must have pulled the silverware drawer out too far. After a few
moments, she hears the singular clink of odd pieces of flatware being returned
to their molded spots. Well, Katya thinks, that should keep him quiet for a
while. She settles back into the sofa and closes her eyes again. Her two o'clock appointment had
phoned yesterday calling on a line with static and background traffic noise. He
seemed in a rush, asking if he could come around in the morning, at eight, if
you can imagine that! He even tried to bribe her with muffins. What was it
about men, always trying to arrange you into their schedules? "Kay!" Lew yells. Katya opens her eyes. "Yes
dear." "Where's the damn sugar?" Sugar. So that's what all this
clatter is about. The measly sugar which she never uses. And swearing
besides. "Kay, did you hear me?" After an unhurried pause, she
answers. "On the counter, near the pot." Lew lumbers into the living room.
"That's the first place I looked. It's not there.� "Maybe you took the bowl into
the garage, and stop calling me Kay. I'm Katya, especially when people are
over.� His gaze darts around the room.
"What people?" Katya ignores him. "I have a reading
in five minutes," she tells him. "I need to study.� Her husband pats his chest pockets,
then feels his legs. What�s he looking
for - his car keys? Is he about to
leave? That was the problem with having
strangers visit their home. She never
knew if she�d need protection. �Lew, you promised to stay.� Lew turns away. "A half hour.
That's it, Kay. I have to finish up on the Noonan's garage.� "Katya. It's Katya," she
reminds him. He waves his hand as if he�s heard
enough and trudges back into the kitchen. She reaches for her business cards
and pulls one out. The red block
letters read: KATYA - HAND READER She admires her
name - KATYA, mysterious yet tasteful, and so much better than boring
"Kay". It sounds gypsy, not that she�s ever known one. But she can
imagine a dark-haired woman dancing in the night around a crackling fire, the
flames casting light and shadows around her spinning form. KATYA, a woman with
chains of gold around her neck and wrists and ankles, who seduces the swarthy
men with her curling hands and body turns. Of course, Kay is nothing of the
sort. Not at fifty-eight, not with anemic frizzy hair that�s falling out in
clumps. She sighs deeply and glances around the living room. Everything is in order. Swatches of
tapestry dress the sofa arms. Odd scarves - some lace, others translucent -
veil the lamps and shroud the tabletops. A line of smoke from the
sparkler-stick incense snakes up in the corner and fills the room with a sweet
thick haze. She checks herself in the panel
mirror one last time. The long coral top hangs loosely from her shoulders,
skimming her breasts and nicely avoiding the contact of any bulges below. Its
matching skirt, thick with tiny pleats, touches the floor. Nothing these days
is short enough for her five-foot frame. Still, there are advantages. She
doesn't need to bother with stockings, just an old pair of slide-on slippers
will do. She then goes into the kitchen to put on a pot of tea. Lew, hunched at
the kitchen table, sips his coffee. "So you found the sugar,"
she says. He shifts a glance at her.
"No.� "Well, if you can't find the
bowl, why not just get more from the bag.�
He turns and peers out the
window. She really doesn�t have the time for
this but she marches over to the cupboard and while on tippy-toe, surveys the
shelves. She moves the flour, honey, the bottles of oil and vinegar from one
side to another. "Oh," she says, "I guess we're out.� "No kidding.� Katya shuts the cupboard door and
decides, again, not to give it another thought. She
grabs the kettle and fills it with tap water. Then she remembers - the sugar
bowl is on the sideboard, in the dining room with the teacups. She had put it
there the night before for her visit today. But Lew is almost finished with his
coffee and it hardly seems the best time to let him know. Have him steep with the tea, she decides,
and she turns on the burner. Lew straightens up in his chair.
"Someone�s coming.� Katya sidles up behind him, lightly
resting her hand on his shoulder and stoops down to get a better look. The car, white and glimmering, has a
rack on top. It enters the driveway slowly. "What kind of car is
that?" Katya asks Lew. "Volvo.� "Expensive?" "Yep. Full of air bags too.� The car stops. After a moment, the
door opens. A young man gets out. He�s a young girl's dream - blue-black hair,
thick and longish that tapers over his collar. He�s wearing a dark-brown
leather jacket with khaki pants. The man squints into the sun, then
slips off his coat and puts it into the car through the driver's window. Eyeing
the house, he strolls toward it. "You get the door.� Katya says
and she rushes from the kitchen not waiting for a response. From the other side of the wall,
Katya hears a knocking, then the skid of Lew's chair and his slow heavy step.
The deadbolt clicks, the door creaks open. "I'm looking for Katya,"
the young man says. "Is this the right place?" "The one and only," Lew
says. "Come in. I'm Mr. Katya.� Finally Lew says her name, but
hardly in the way she expects. "I'm Austin.� "Pleased to meet you. My
wife..." Katya considers this her cue. Standing as tall as possible, she makes an
entrance. The man turns. He�s even more handsome close up.
His light blue shirt, buttoned down at the collar, is ironed. Knifelike creases
run down his arms to the folded-back cuffs. He has an olive coloring that
glows. Katya extends both her hands and
wraps them around the hand he offers. His grip is solid and warm; his skin,
supple and smooth. College educated, most likely, with a clean job, she
assumes, in an office where there are no temperature extremes, and with a
girlfriend or mother or wife who does the dishes. She lets go of his hand. "I'm making some tea," she
says. "It should only take a minute, then we'll begin.� "Fine," he says, smiling
with teeth as even and white as piano keys.
Katya can�t ever remember seeing a
man so perfect, except for maybe Cary Grant. But he was in the movies, not live
and in color right in her kitchen. She brushes a few strands of hair away from
her face and peeks down at her feet, fearing her bare stubby toes might be
poking out. "Beautiful day for a
ride," Lew says. �For sure.� "So how was the
drive?" "No problem. Thruway was
clear." "Coming from Buffalo?" "Yeah.� Lew leans against the counter and
folds his arms. "That should've taken about an hour and a half." Austin glances at his watch. "A
little under, maybe." The kettle whistles. "Excuse
me," Katya says as she patters between the two men. She turns off the
gas. "Yep, they finally finished
that construction after the exit," Lew says. "Bridge work. Took'em
two years. You're lucky you missed that." "Mmm," Austin agrees. Katya stretches, reaching for the
teapot in the cupboard above. "Here, let me get that for
you," she hears the young man say as he comes up close behind. His hand lightly touches the small
of her back while his extended arm rises up beside hers. It�s almost like they�re dancing, ballet
dancing and for a moment she thinks of leaning back, feigning a fall to see if
he'd catch her. Such a notion! Instead she withdraws her arm and
turns slightly. "Thank you."
He smiles again, a broad-faced
smile, not just with his mouth but also with his eyes, glimmering and dark. He
hands her the pot. "You happy with the
Volvo?" Lew says. "I hear they can be expensive to fix." Austin steps away from her. "I
haven't had any problems so far." "Lucky for you. Tune-ups alone
can run a hundred and fifty." "Let's see," Katya says
loudly, "I have regular tea, of course, but maybe you'd like some
herbal--" "Aren't those the cars that
have electrical problems?" Lew interrupts. "Excuse me, dear, but I was
asking the nice man about what kind of tea he'd like," and she pulls out a
drawer lined with colorful boxes. "There's rose hips, chamomile, lemon
zing, sass-" "Maybe he'd like coffee,"
Lew cuts in again. "Men don't drink, what'd you call it...lemon
zing?" Katya wants to shake her husband,
send him to his room, do whatever it takes to stop him from being his usual
bad-humored, rude self. She takes a deep breath and focuses
on Austin. "Would you prefer coffee?" she asks evenly. Austin's
eyes flit between the couple. "Regular tea sounds fine. Thank you. Thank
you both." Katya grips the handle of the pot
and steadies the hot side with a padded glove. Turning toward Austin, she asks,
�Shall we get started?� "Sure," Austin says. Katya pivots around and advances
toward the living room. �It�s nice meeting you,� she
overhears Austin saying to Lew. As Katya leans her shoulder into the
kitchen door, the young man rushes over, reaches around her and pushes the door
open. Such a gentleman, she thinks, so refreshing, so pleasant. Katya slips through the doorway.
"By the way," she calls back to Lew, "the sugar's on the
buffet." Austin
brushes past her. "What a great view!" Like most of the homes in the area,
their living room faces the water. Where other towns have a small square and
monument right smack in the center, Susquadaga has its lake. The mid-afternoon
sun is casting a honey glow on the town. Small white houses, much like theirs,
run along the curving road that winds around the water. And trees, hundreds of
them, some pine, some still bare from the winter, gather in clumps, rising and
falling with the rolling hills. The lake, slate gray and still, without a
ripple or wave, seems so peaceful. And the ducks are back, sailing over and
around the water, up and down and turning, and for a moment it feels as if she
and the young man are cradled in spring. Katya
nods to the chair that faces the window. "You can sit here," and she
puts the pot down on the table. �I�ll get the cups.� She steps over to the
dining room where she stops for a moment and contemplates the teacups. She
decides on the only two that match - the Royal Albert pair with roses. Perfect for her nicely mannered man. The
cups rattle as she makes her way back to the table and eases into her seat. �Can I pour you some tea?� she asks.
�Yes, but allow me,� he says. Katya can�t remember the last time
someone actually did something for her without her having to ask. She sits back
in her chair and watches as he does the honors. He has a natural upward curl to
his lips that makes him seem everlastingly serene, and she can only remember
children as having such long feathery lashes. Sunlight caresses her back,
warming her inside and out, and for the first time in months she feels
toasty. �Shall I get the cream and sugar?�
she asks. �Well, not for me.� Katya flutters. Already they have
something in common. She reaches out
across the table. "Let�s begin with your left hand.� Austin nests his curled hand into
hers. Gently she strokes his palm. With each sweep, his warm dry hand opens
wider. �You see,� she begins to say, �your
hands are like road maps, with lines and mounts and valleys..." And she
tells him about the gypsies and the planets and the elements. She presses and
pokes, first feeling his left hand, then his right. The more she speaks, the
more she forgets about how odd she looks, or how old, or fat. She even forgets
about her husband. Lew stands at the kitchen table with
his hands in his pockets, staring out the back window. He had summed up Austin
the minute he saw him - a know-it-all-pretty-boy-rich kid, who never worked an
honest day in his life. No coke ovens, or orange dust up his ass, that was for
sure. Lew�s seen plenty like him, the president�s son, the vice-president�s
nephew, slumming it at the plant during the summers, getting the clean jobs.
Fussed-over pretty boys who were always skipped to the front of the line, given
the larger piece of the pie. And that Volvo! How Lew hates
foreign cars with their fool symbols and cheap interiors. A real car is a Caddy
- a car with legroom, back support; a car that floats on air, drives like
silk. Lew�s mouth feels dry and bitter
from the unsweetened coffee. He looks at the clock. They�ve been yammering for
twenty minutes. Time�s up. He pushes open the kitchen door just wide enough to
catch Kay�s eyes. "I need to talk to you," he calls out. Kay smiles at lover boy, �Will you
excuse me a minute,� and she gets up from the table and walks toward Lew. Lew opens the door wider as his wife
enters the kitchen. After the door swings shut, she
turns to Lew, "What is it?" Lew grabs her arm and pulls her
close. "Listen," he says in a low raspy voice, "I found a dead
baby--� "What?" Lew jerks his chin toward the living
room. "In that guy�s car,� he murmurs, �wrapped up in a towel on the back
seat." Kay cranes her neck back to look at
him straight on. "What are you
saying?" "I was just checking out how
they mounted the air bags and there it was." "There what was?" "The baby, well not exactly the
baby, but an arm. I saw an arm." "An arm!" Katya coughs out
with her hand over her mouth. "So I opened the door. I
figured it had to be a doll or something." Kay seems to waver. Lew leans into
her, steadying her with his arm. "Anyway, I pulled the corner of the towel
around to check it, and... there it was." Lew draws her nearer and places
his lips to her ear. "You've got to get rid of him. Act like nothing's
happened. Then we'll decide what to do." Kay looks at her husband. �But--� "That's my girl." Lew
squeezes her tight then loosens his grip. �I need to write down the license
number. As soon as I take it down I'll go into the dining room. That's when you'll know to get him to leave.
Understand?" Kay stands motionless and Lew
wonders if he needs to shake her. �Kay, are you listening?� She nods and straightens her spine.
�Yes,� she exhales quietly. Lew opens the kitchen door and Kay passes through. Austin
is leaning back in his chair, looking closely at his palms. "I think I
found something," he says. A shiver passes through Katya. Lew
has found something too. "See," the young man says,
and points to a spot. Katya hunches over him. It�s a star,
tiny but perfectly formed with a center and six off-shooting lines, and it�s in
the oddest place - on the Plain of Mars, right in the middle of the hand. "That�s interesting," she
says not wanting to upset him.
"Stars are fortuitous, a very good sign. Money, fame, fortune. Yes,
and lucky too. The whole nine yards, I'd say.�
Was she talking too fast? Was she
making any sense? How many times has she watched police shows where the
murderer or rapist or devil-worshiper was like the guy next door? Just like her
guy here. The young man beams. She glances down at him, trying to
find something she may have overlooked, some telltale sign. Maybe a tattoo, or
pierced hole somewhere, or blood flecks on his shirt or pant cuffs or
socks. But all she sees is a neatly pressed
man. And she wonders if he is perhaps too clean - the kind of man who leads an
obsessive life, who, at the slightest provocation, could fly into a rage if
something was out of place. Katya takes a deep choppy
breath. "Aren't
you going to sit back down?" he asks.
"Yes, of
course," she says and she slides into her chair. The man moves his hands across the
table. Katya doesn�t want to touch them.
Where have these hands been? Wrapped around the baby's neck, shaking the child
senseless? "Is anything wrong?" he
asks. Beads of sweat drip down her sides.
The man stares at her, waiting. She must say something. She blots her cheeks with the back
of her hand. "I seem to be getting a hot fla--" and she stops. Lew�s
coughing in the dining room. "Where's that sugar?" he
finally calls out. "Excuse me, won't you?"
Katya says, and she pushes her chair from the table. As she stands up, the
table rocks, and his empty tea cup tips over on its side. She rushes over to Lew and whispers,
"Did you get it?" "Yes,"
he says quietly, then adds in a normal tone, "I see the sugar now." Katya returns to the table and
stands beside the young man�s chair. Looking out at the lake, she says,
"I'm afraid time's up." He peers up at her, then reels
around and shifts his eyes at Lew. "Oh...okay. How much do I owe
you?" Katya flusters. She doesn�t want to
fiddle for change or touch his money. �Whatever you think is fine.� He reaches for his wallet, fishes
out a twenty-dollar bill and places it on the table. "I'll walk you out," Lew
tells him from across the room. Austin pushes his chair away from
the table and rises. "Thank
you," he says to Katya, extending his hand. She
skims her hand through his, barely touching. "This way," Lew says. The two men leave the room. Katya collapses into the couch. She
remembers the oddest thing - the feeling she had as a young girl, leaving the
movie theater in the afternoon, with the sun blinding her eyes and her
wondering what was real and what was fake. She glances around her living room
and all its familiarity dims. Lew leads Austin through the kitchen
and out the back door. They walk silently to the car. Dead Babies. Lew�s heard about them
regularly on the six o'clock news while he sits in front of the TV with his
metal tray and nightly baked potato. News stories of babies discarded - some
left in oven-hot cars, others strapped in watery back seats; the rest,
plastic-wrapped and thrown in dumpsters. Babies baked, drowned, suffocated. All
of them dead. Lew
looks down at the man's brown shoes. Leather tassels bounce from side to side
with each step. Rat-stinking
murderers. That's what Lew thinks of baby killers. Just like this kid Austin.
He could fit the profile. After all
baby killers look normal. He�s seen it for himself, once the paper bags were
taken off and the cameras got a clear shot. Fresh-cut hair, scrubbed faces,
straight teeth, just like they�ve come from Sunday service. Austin opens his car door and slides
in. Lew steps back. "Have a nice
drive." Austin leans forward. "Sure
thing," he says and he rears out of the driveway in choppy fits and
starts. From the perch of the main road, Austin casts a wave in Lew�s
direction. "Ciao," Lew says to
himself and he watches the car charge down the speckled road that�s part-sun,
part-shade. At the corner, the brake
lights flash twice before the car veers out of sight. Good riddance, Lew thinks, and he
glimpses at his watch. He figures five
minutes to wash up and ten minutes to get to the motel - that will give him
just enough time. Of course he'll have to tell Kay he
made up the dead-baby story. And maybe he did go a bit too far. But she had
promised to be done in half an hour and she was nowhere close. Besides she had
made him angry. First the sugar, then the kid, not to mention all that garbage
about Venus and Mars. Lew saunters to the house. He has to
come up with a good reason. Maybe he could say it was a joke. After all he was
a funny guy. He steps into the kitchen.
"Is that you?" Kay calls
out. "The one and only," Lew
answers as he enters the living room. Kay�s sitting on the couch, slumped
over. "Is he gone?" "Like ticker tape." Kay dabs her eyes with a corner of
her shawl. "How can we be sure he won't come back?" Lew reaches into his pocket, pulls
out a handkerchief and sits next to his wife. "Here use this," he
says, offering his hanky. Kay takes it and blows her
nose. "Listen, Kay, about that
kid--" "Was it a little boy or a
little girl?� she asks between gasps of breaths. �Huh?� �The baby.� �Oh.� �Was there blood?� �No, no blood. Listen Kay--� �Then why was it in a towel?� �Towel?� �You said the poor thing was wrapped
up in a towel.� �Well, that�s what I said but--� �Were there bruises?� �No bruises, no blood, no nothing.� �Nothing?� �Right...nothing.� There. Lew was halfway, just two
more words - no baby. She gazes at him wide-eyed, her eyes
filling up again and for a moment Lew sees her thirty years younger. Her face
blushed and round. A thick tear collects in the corner of her eye and falls
down her cheek. She leans into him, resting her head on his chest. A tingling
sensation ripples inside him. �Well, maybe it was an accident,�
she says, sniffling. �Maybe the little angel died of crib death or swallowed
something or was sick with a fever.� His wife, all wrinkled and damp, looks
into his face. �That�s possible, right?� Lew circles his arm around her
shoulder and presses her close. She collapses into him and runs her arms along
his waist, nestling her face under his chin.
He�s forgotten how she feels, so
warm, so soft. And her touch brings back memories of a different time. The
pavilion down at the lake, the yellow lights, the slow dance. �Lew,� she says, �do you think it
could have been an accident?� An accident, Lew thinks, yes of
course. A verbal accident, that�s what the lie was, nothing more, nothing less.
An oral kink, a blurb. Something that simply fell off the shelf. No one�s
fault, no damage done. She lifts her head and speaks into
his ear. �Are you listening?� And he is, sort of, but not to her
words so much as to her rhythms - her breath, heart, pulse; eavesdropping like
some thief who breaks in and hears the dripping faucet, the ticking clock of an
empty house. �Sh,� he tells her. Lew can�t remember the last time
he�s held her. �Yes, that must be it,� she says
aloud. �Of course, what other reason could there be?� Her hair smells flowery like roses. �He couldn�t have done such a thing
on purpose,� she continues. But Lew isn�t paying much attention.
He tilts his head and presses his lips to her forehead, then to the bridge of
her nose. Suddenly she sits upright. Lew reaches for her, wanting to tow
her in, wanting to bring her back but she slips away. She steps over to the window and
sighs. �He seemed like such a nice boy.� Nice boy? What planet was Kay on?
Couldn�t she see how the kid was playing up to her like some kiss-ass Casanova
- opening doors, grabbing her, and all the time grinning like some goon. Lew slaps his hands on his lap.
�Kay, nice boys drive around with dirty laundry and baseball mitts in their
backseats. Not dead babies!� �Yes, of course,� she says quietly
not bothering to turn around. The light from the window makes her appear small
and round-shouldered. Lew rests his elbows on his knees
and considers the braided rug with its winding circles. Somehow he got
sidetracked, made a left turn. Is it too late to go back? He rubs his face. When he looks back up Kay is in
front of him. She kneels down and drapes her arms on his folded legs. "You're right," she says.
�And not just about him but about everything.� �Everything?� �You know, about having strange
people come to the house." Could it be that Kay is finally
coming around to his way of thinking - to forget this mystic stuff and get on
with real life? "Yeah, it's like I've been
telling you, but you never listen. There's just too many screwballs
loose." Kay blinks. "I should've
listened to you." He draws her in again. She doesn�t
resist. "Everything is going to be fine," he tells her. He closes his eyes, strokes her back
and tightens her between his legs. She speaks into his ear. �Should I
call 911 or do you want to?� A jolt goes through him. His eyes
pop open. �And I suppose they�ll be wanting
the license number.� The license number! He hadn�t
bothered writing anything down. He loosens his grip and leans back. "Now
Kay, settle down a minute. Maybe phoning wouldn�t be such a good idea. Everyone in town with a scanner will pick up
the dispatch when they send a car over. He�s still out there, you know. No telling what he might do if he finds out
we�re the ones who blew him in.� Lew shakes his head. �This can�t be handled
over the phone.� �I suppose so,� Kay says as she
rises to her feet. �I�ll wash my face
then we�ll leave.� Lew jumps up. �No, definitely not,�
he blurts out. �You shouldn�t be involved. Besides what more could you tell
them?� �Well, I could tell them about his hands.� �His hands?� �His lines, you know, and my
impressions.� Lew feels an argument coming on. �I
don�t think they�d be interested.� �You mean they�d think I was crazy.� �I didn�t say that.� �But that�s what you meant,� she
says tearfully. �I just think we should stick
with...the facts. There�s no reason for you to get involved. I�ll handle it.� Kay drops onto the couch. "I do
seem to have a headache." "All the more reason for you to stay home." "But what if he comes
back?" Lew feels the room closing in on
him. Suddenly, the air is too thick to breathe. "No way, that kid's gone for
good," Lew reassures her. "He
took off like a bullet when I told him I was a retired FBI agent." "You what?" "Well, I had to tell him
something. You know, to make him think twice about messing with us." Kay shakes her head. "But an
FBI agent - really, Lew." "It worked. The minute I told
him, he got in his car and took off. In fact, he was so nervous he almost
flooded the damn thing.� Kay gazes at her husband. �When do
you think you�ll get back?� Lew eyes his watch and figures in
the time. "Shouldn�t take me more than an hour.� "And what about the
Noonans?" �The Noonans . . . of course, well,
I�ll have to call them and cancel.� His wife shivers in the corner of
the couch and tightens the shawl around her.
�You�ll be all right?� he asks
sheepishly. Her face sags, and for a brief
moment Lew considers staying home. �I�ll get you a blanket,� he says,
sidestepping into the dining room. �Put your feet up." He opens the bottom drawer, pulls
out a blanket and goes back to cover his wife. �I�ll call you from the station,� he
says, tucking her in. �I won�t be long.� He then stretches over, plucks the
telephone from a small table and places it on the floor beside her. Kay lays the back of her hand along
her forehead, nods silently, then closes her eyes. Lew turns to leave. �I�ll lock
up.� Driving north on Route 60, past the
vineyards and the trailer parks, Lew wonders what went wrong. His intention to
tell Kay the truth was there but somehow it got waylaid. It must have been her
tears. What was it about a woman crying that made you want to say anything, do
anything? He couldn't kick her while
she was down. He did the right thing, the only thing under the circumstances.
Besides, maybe she learned a lesson, got a wake-up call. Anyway, he�d make it up to her
somehow. Lew rolls down the car window. Fresh
spring air swirls around him, blowing his hair onto his forehead. He makes a
mental note to comb his hair in the motel parking lot. Then he twists off his
wedding ring and drops it into his left breast pocket.
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�2002 Linda A. Lavid | ||
Linda A. Lavid hails from Buffalo, New York
where lake effect, snow and writing fuse between tedium and
glints of inspiration. She has had the following short stories published in books, anthologies and on-line:"A
Father's Love" in Life Stories: Casework in the
First Person, edited by Jessica Heriot and Eileen Blinger; "The
License Plate" in The Southern Cross Review,
edited by Frank Thomas Smith; "A Star is Born" in Over Coffee, edited by Cynthia Willerth;
"Highwire" in Wilmington Blues, edited by
Jennifer McGuirt. She is working on a mystery novel, Hattie
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